Saturday

Sunday

Power of Books

I am fascinated with books. There is something with having a new book that excites me.

The first book that I've read that really triggered my enthusiasm towards reading is Glass by Ellen Hopkins. Just then I have developed my passion towards reading. I've learned that it's her second book, continuation of Crank. I managed to find the very last copy they have of it in a local bookstore. And now, I'm saving up for the last book, which is Fallout.

I prefer hardbound-covered ones. But the paperback or soft cover ones comes cheaper. That'll do, too.

My father love books, too. We can spend the whole day in a bookstore, scanning and reading some of them.

My aunt likes reading, too. And so as my cousins.

But my mom and brother - not quite.

And I think, reading too much (because sometimes I read on 'against the light' places, as what my mom would say, and inside the jeepney.) contributed to the development of my astigmatism.

I find joy being surrounded by books.

It's like they have powers. They can take you to places, be somebody else, and improve your imagination you thought you've lost growing up.


It's like a necessity. To improve. To relax. To have fun.

Books are really great treasures everybody should have. And love.

Glasses

I have been on and off the computer lately. I always check on my Facebook account and updated Tweets every now and then. I surf the net for the news around the world and other interesting stuff. Day after day, this is how I keep myself busy before school days start again.

I used to wear glasses when I was a kid. Reading glasses. Then, not long after I got it I stopped using it. Everything was clear before.

 I could read from afar.

 Until I felt the pain again this year.

I often suffer headaches after I use the computer for a couple of hours. There was even a time when I suffered dizziness for two consecutive days that I even thought maybe something's wrong with my head.

So last night, I got my eyes checked. Again. After years.

The ophthalmologist told me I am suffering from Astigmatism. I've heard about it before, but I don't know what it means. So this is what I found on the internet:

Astigmatism is an eye condition with blurred vision as its main symptom. The front surface of the eye (cornea) of a person with astigmatism is not curved properly - the curve is irregular - usually one half is flatter than the other - sometimes one area is steeper than it should be. (medicalnewstoday.com)

My mom told me my aunt have it. And so as my brother. He got his eyes checked, too, last night. Though the doctor told us his grade is higher than mine.

The sad part is, I have to wear it all the time. Everyday. Especially when using the computer.

It sucks. I don't want to be wearing glasses when the school starts.

I don't think glasses looks good on me. Siggggggh.

Friday

Value of Happiness

It's been a while. A really long time.

But as I was gone, I learned how to be so close to God. I learned how to depend on Him and that He always have a bigger plan for me.

I have realized that I wasted so much time depending my happiness on other people.. I have spent my entire teenage years feeling so empty having no one with me. I felt incomplete before. I was dumb to think that I am not enough for myself, so I kept on depending my happiness on other people. And each and every time I try to give my all to someone, I always end up getting hurt. And so, I am alone again.. I am incomplete.

 And the cycle goes on.

This is my last year being a teen. And I have learned the best thing.

I have learned to distant myself from other people and enjoyed being alone for quite a while. I have learned that loving myself would be the first step for total happiness. And that having someone to be with me is just a bonus.

Life is awesome. Whether you are alone or not. Because one should not depend his or her happiness to other people.

True Happiness is learning how to be contented and learning how to love oneself before anyone else.