May mga tao talagang wala nang ibang inisip kundi sarili nila. Ang important, yung kaligayahan nila. Kahit na anong maging epekto pa ng ginagawa nila o sinasabi nila, puro sarili lang nila ang mahalaga. May mga taong manggagamit. May mga taong nandadamay ng kapwa. At pagnakuha na nila ang gusto nila, ok na. Kalimutan na. Next time na lang ulit, kapag kinailangan ka na naman niya.
Pwedeng kaibigan mo yan, kakilala, o espesyal na tao sayo. Lahat ata ng pagpapanggap, ginagawa nila. Mapagbigyan mo lang ulit. Mapunan mo lang ang kulang sa kanila. Pagkatapos noon, wala na. Dahil ok na sila, hindi ka na nila kailangan. Hindi ka na nila maaalala.
Nakakalungkot lang. Bakit parang masyado ata silang nagiging makasarili? Baka nakakalimutan nilang tao din tayo. Tao rin naman ako.
Nalulungkot din ako. Nasasaktan. Hindi lang naman sila ang may problema, hindi lang naman sila ang nangangailangan ng ibang tao para mapagbalingan.
Bakit kasi kailangan pang manggamit ng iba. Mag-take advantage sa kahinaan at vulnerability ng ibang tao.
Hindi lang naman ikaw ang nasasaktan. Ang nangangailangan.
Ako rin naman.
Wala naman sanang gamitan.
Showing posts with label personal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label personal. Show all posts
Wednesday
To Quit or Not To Quit
Hindi ako talaga dapat online ngayon, e. Wala kasi akong pasok ngayong araw lang na 'to. Pero dahil 2 lang ang subjects ko ngayon, wala pa yung isang prof 'e wala na din kaming klase dun sa huling subject. Pero.. Madami pa rin akong kailangang gawin. Everyday is Quiz Day. At hindi ko na alam kung tama pa bang pinagpapatuloy ko 'tong course na 'to o sadyang napipilitan na lang ako dahil umabot na ko sa level na 'to. Sa ngayon, nag-eenjoy naman ako. Kahit gabi gabing nag-aaral - na hindi ko naman talaga gawain, at kahit na nag-aral ka na at nagpuyat 'e failed pa rin. Kaya lang sa puntong ito, there's no turning back.
Pero naisip ko, kapag bumagsak ako kahit isang sub lang ngayong sem na ito, lilipat na ako ng course. Psych? Mas madami kasing credited kapag galing MT ka tapos Psych ang patutunguhan. Pwede na rin ang Psych. Gusto ko sana ng Masscom. Kaya lang, masyadong petiks 'yon, lalo akong tatamarin. Tsaka wala akong maccredit na sub, sobrang konti lang.
As of now, sabi nila, in demand nga ang Medical Technologists.. Pero wag ibase sa 'in demand' ang tatahakin. Mahirap nang magsayang ng pera, oras, at talento kung kukunin mo lang ang isang course dahil uso at madaming pwedeng pasukang trabaho. Dahil sa huli, ikaw lang din ang mahihirapan. Mare-realize mo na lang na hindi mo pala talaga kaya (mentally, physically, and emotionally) ang challenges na dulot ng MedTech life. O di kaya minsan naman, 'yun talaga ang gustong gusto mong gawin o pre-med mo kung saka-sakali nangarap kang maging doktor, pero hindi mo naman talaga kaya.
Sadyang may mga bagay kasi na hindi nadadaan lang sa pangarap, kakailanganin mo talaga ang apat bagay upang magtagumpay: 1) dedikasyon, 2) disiplina, 3) talino 4) kakayahan. Magkulang ka ng isa dyan, mahihirapan ka na. Mahirap na nga ang course, mas mahihirapan ka pa lalo..
Katulad ko.
Pero naisip ko, kapag bumagsak ako kahit isang sub lang ngayong sem na ito, lilipat na ako ng course. Psych? Mas madami kasing credited kapag galing MT ka tapos Psych ang patutunguhan. Pwede na rin ang Psych. Gusto ko sana ng Masscom. Kaya lang, masyadong petiks 'yon, lalo akong tatamarin. Tsaka wala akong maccredit na sub, sobrang konti lang.
As of now, sabi nila, in demand nga ang Medical Technologists.. Pero wag ibase sa 'in demand' ang tatahakin. Mahirap nang magsayang ng pera, oras, at talento kung kukunin mo lang ang isang course dahil uso at madaming pwedeng pasukang trabaho. Dahil sa huli, ikaw lang din ang mahihirapan. Mare-realize mo na lang na hindi mo pala talaga kaya (mentally, physically, and emotionally) ang challenges na dulot ng MedTech life. O di kaya minsan naman, 'yun talaga ang gustong gusto mong gawin o pre-med mo kung saka-sakali nangarap kang maging doktor, pero hindi mo naman talaga kaya.
Sadyang may mga bagay kasi na hindi nadadaan lang sa pangarap, kakailanganin mo talaga ang apat bagay upang magtagumpay: 1) dedikasyon, 2) disiplina, 3) talino 4) kakayahan. Magkulang ka ng isa dyan, mahihirapan ka na. Mahirap na nga ang course, mas mahihirapan ka pa lalo..
Katulad ko.
Sunday
Glasses
I have been on and off the computer lately. I always check on my Facebook account and updated Tweets every now and then. I surf the net for the news around the world and other interesting stuff. Day after day, this is how I keep myself busy before school days start again.
I used to wear glasses when I was a kid. Reading glasses. Then, not long after I got it I stopped using it. Everything was clear before.
I could read from afar.
Until I felt the pain again this year.
I often suffer headaches after I use the computer for a couple of hours. There was even a time when I suffered dizziness for two consecutive days that I even thought maybe something's wrong with my head.
So last night, I got my eyes checked. Again. After years.
The ophthalmologist told me I am suffering from Astigmatism. I've heard about it before, but I don't know what it means. So this is what I found on the internet:
My mom told me my aunt have it. And so as my brother. He got his eyes checked, too, last night. Though the doctor told us his grade is higher than mine.
The sad part is, I have to wear it all the time. Everyday. Especially when using the computer.
It sucks. I don't want to be wearing glasses when the school starts.
I don't think glasses looks good on me. Siggggggh.
I used to wear glasses when I was a kid. Reading glasses. Then, not long after I got it I stopped using it. Everything was clear before.
I could read from afar.
Until I felt the pain again this year.
I often suffer headaches after I use the computer for a couple of hours. There was even a time when I suffered dizziness for two consecutive days that I even thought maybe something's wrong with my head.
So last night, I got my eyes checked. Again. After years.
The ophthalmologist told me I am suffering from Astigmatism. I've heard about it before, but I don't know what it means. So this is what I found on the internet:
Astigmatism is an eye condition with blurred vision as its main symptom. The front surface of the eye (cornea) of a person with astigmatism is not curved properly - the curve is irregular - usually one half is flatter than the other - sometimes one area is steeper than it should be. (medicalnewstoday.com)
My mom told me my aunt have it. And so as my brother. He got his eyes checked, too, last night. Though the doctor told us his grade is higher than mine.
The sad part is, I have to wear it all the time. Everyday. Especially when using the computer.
It sucks. I don't want to be wearing glasses when the school starts.
I don't think glasses looks good on me. Siggggggh.
Friday
Value of Happiness
It's been a while. A really long time.
But as I was gone, I learned how to be so close to God. I learned how to depend on Him and that He always have a bigger plan for me.
I have realized that I wasted so much time depending my happiness on other people.. I have spent my entire teenage years feeling so empty having no one with me. I felt incomplete before. I was dumb to think that I am not enough for myself, so I kept on depending my happiness on other people. And each and every time I try to give my all to someone, I always end up getting hurt. And so, I am alone again.. I am incomplete.
And the cycle goes on.
This is my last year being a teen. And I have learned the best thing.
I have learned to distant myself from other people and enjoyed being alone for quite a while. I have learned that loving myself would be the first step for total happiness. And that having someone to be with me is just a bonus.
Life is awesome. Whether you are alone or not. Because one should not depend his or her happiness to other people.
True Happiness is learning how to be contented and learning how to love oneself before anyone else.
But as I was gone, I learned how to be so close to God. I learned how to depend on Him and that He always have a bigger plan for me.
I have realized that I wasted so much time depending my happiness on other people.. I have spent my entire teenage years feeling so empty having no one with me. I felt incomplete before. I was dumb to think that I am not enough for myself, so I kept on depending my happiness on other people. And each and every time I try to give my all to someone, I always end up getting hurt. And so, I am alone again.. I am incomplete.
And the cycle goes on.
This is my last year being a teen. And I have learned the best thing.
I have learned to distant myself from other people and enjoyed being alone for quite a while. I have learned that loving myself would be the first step for total happiness. And that having someone to be with me is just a bonus.
Life is awesome. Whether you are alone or not. Because one should not depend his or her happiness to other people.
True Happiness is learning how to be contented and learning how to love oneself before anyone else.
Sunday
Today (I think) is my Lucky Day!
- I got myself a copy of "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho.
- My mom bought a set of BINGO at National Bookstore.
- Went to the groceries and got myself 2 packs of Monde's Butter Coconut.
- Our dinner is by my special request, chicken curry and mixed vegetables.
- We played BINGO and I won 2 times, worth 20 pesos (only) each.
Full entry tomorrow. :) My brother's using the PC so I still have to wait for him to finish.
anyway, he'd sleep earlier than me. I'd be up until 5, I think. :D
"I Shall Return", and so I did.
Welcome me back, Blogger. I've been out from this site 2 years now, and I am back. I transfered to Tumblr but then I got bored because of the same lame routine they have there. Following, Follow Back, Reblogs. And more reblogs everyday. There are some point when I end up "unfollowing" tons of people because of the low "quality" of their posts. Anyway, I am back here for more. More of personal entries! No more reblogs. :)
The advantages of having a Blogger account and a Tumblr account at the same time. I can leave Tumblr anytime I want, and vice versa.
Let this be my first post.
The advantages of having a Blogger account and a Tumblr account at the same time. I can leave Tumblr anytime I want, and vice versa.
Let this be my first post.
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