May mga tao talagang wala nang ibang inisip kundi sarili nila. Ang important, yung kaligayahan nila. Kahit na anong maging epekto pa ng ginagawa nila o sinasabi nila, puro sarili lang nila ang mahalaga. May mga taong manggagamit. May mga taong nandadamay ng kapwa. At pagnakuha na nila ang gusto nila, ok na. Kalimutan na. Next time na lang ulit, kapag kinailangan ka na naman niya.
Pwedeng kaibigan mo yan, kakilala, o espesyal na tao sayo. Lahat ata ng pagpapanggap, ginagawa nila. Mapagbigyan mo lang ulit. Mapunan mo lang ang kulang sa kanila. Pagkatapos noon, wala na. Dahil ok na sila, hindi ka na nila kailangan. Hindi ka na nila maaalala.
Nakakalungkot lang. Bakit parang masyado ata silang nagiging makasarili? Baka nakakalimutan nilang tao din tayo. Tao rin naman ako.
Nalulungkot din ako. Nasasaktan. Hindi lang naman sila ang may problema, hindi lang naman sila ang nangangailangan ng ibang tao para mapagbalingan.
Bakit kasi kailangan pang manggamit ng iba. Mag-take advantage sa kahinaan at vulnerability ng ibang tao.
Hindi lang naman ikaw ang nasasaktan. Ang nangangailangan.
Ako rin naman.
Wala naman sanang gamitan.
Saturday
Walang title.
Ngayon ko lang 'to gagawin. Dito ko ita-type sa blog na ito dahil konti lang ang nakakaalam nito. Isa pa nga lang ata bukod sakin.
So, ito na..
Dear Future Boyfriend,
Hi. So paano ba gumawa ng love letter? Sorry, ha. Hindi kasi ako sanay. Wala naman kasi akong binibigyan ng love letter at hindi rin ako mahilig sa mga letter. Pero dahil hanggang ngayon 'e mukhang hindi pa rin tayo nagkikita, ito lang ang kaya kong magawa.
Asan ka na kaya? Saan ka kaya nag-aaral? Kamusta naman kaya ang pamilya mo? O, may girlfriend ka ba ngayon? Wag mo muna sana siyang pangakuan ng kung ano ano. Andito pa ako. Magkikita pa tayo. Inaantay kita, siguro, sa kabilang sulok ng mundo o andito lang din ako sa Pilipinas kasama mo.
Ano bang mga hilig mo? Tipikal na lalake ka rin ba na mahilig sa basketball, o baka naman mahiyain ka masyado? Ano nga kaya ang estado mo ngayon? Palagi kong naiisip 'yan kapag naaalala ko na lahat daw tayo may itinakdang makakasama habang buhay. Ano kayang ginagawa mo habang ginagawa ko 'to? Nakakaranas ka kaya ng sakit o paghihirap ngayon? Hindi ko alam.. Pero palagi kitang pinag-darasal sa Kanya. Siya lang kasi ang may alam kung sino ka, at kung nasaan ka. Siya lang ang makakasagot sa tanong ko na KAILAN.
Hindi ako magaling mag-drawing. Mahina ako sa Math. At hindi rin ako sporty. Ang alam ko lang gawin ay magsulat. Mahilig din akong mag-basa. Hindi naman ako maarte. Sakto lang. Ordinaryo lang ako manamit, at hindi ako makulorete sa katawan. Hindi pa rin ako bihasa sa pagluluto. Ang alam ko lang gawin ay omelet at pancake. Nakakalungkot nga 'e, hindi ko rin alam kung paano magsaing. Hindi rin ako marunong maglaba at mamalantsa. Pasensya ka na, ha? Mukhang mangangailangan tayo ng kasambahay.
Pero habang hindi pa tayo nagkikita, gagamitin ko ang oras na 'to para mag-grow. Gusto ko sanang i-improve ang sarili ko para sa ating dalawa kapag dumating na ang tamang panahong makikita na kita. Sa totoo lang, natatakot ako. Natatakot ako na baka hindi ako pumasa sa standards ng mga magulang mo. Lalong lalo na ng nanay mo. =/ Pero unti unti naman akong nag-aaral sa pagluluto. Nagpapaturo ako sa nanay ko. Sa nanay mo, dito.
Nag-aaral din ako para sa hinaharap natin. Ayokong maging housewife lang. Gusto ko mag-tutulungan tayo sa pag-suporta sa magiging pamilya natin. Pero sisiguraduhin ko na kapag pauwi ka na ng trabaho, nasa bahay na ako. Nakahanda na ang kakainin mo at damit mo. Gusto kitang pagsilbihan hanggat may lakas ako. Gusto kong iparamdam sayo ang pagmamahal na inipon ko ng ilang taon nung hindi pa tayo.
Pasensya ka na kung napaka-futuristic ng dating ng pag-iisip ko. Ako kasi yung tipo na gusto ko, ikaw na yun. Ikaw na yung pagbibigayn ko ng lahat ng makakaya at buong pagmamahal na kaya kong maibigay sa isang tao.
Anyway, alam ko naman na lahat ng tao ay may kahinaan. Lahat tayo, may nakaraan. Lahat tayo, may nagawang mali na gusto nating itama. H'wag mo nang problemahin kung ano mang nangyari sa nakaraan mo. Tatanggapin ko yun at magsisimula ka ng bago, magkatulong tayo. Alam ko rin na normal lang na magkaroon tayo ng "rough days", ayoko sanang patagalin natin kung ano man ang problemang kakaharapin natin. Sana, maging mapag-pasensya at mapag-patawad tayo sa isa't isa.
Higit sa lahat, mamahalin kita sa paraang nakikita ko kung paano minamahal ng nanay ko ngayon ang tatay ko. At kung paano ko gustong makitang minamahal ng magiging "daughter-in-law" ko ang magiging anak ko.
So ngayon, ayan. Nasabi ko na yung gusto kong sabihin. Kung saang panig ka man ng mundo naroroon, sana maramdaman mo na hinihintay at pinaghahandaan kita dito. Dito, sa puso ko.
Hindi ako perpektong babae. Napakalayo ko doon. Pero gagawin ko ang lahat para iparamdam sayo na ikaw ang pinaka-importanteng lalake sa mundo.
Mag-iingat at magdarasal ka sana parati.
Aantayin kita.
So, ito na..
Dear Future Boyfriend,
Hi. So paano ba gumawa ng love letter? Sorry, ha. Hindi kasi ako sanay. Wala naman kasi akong binibigyan ng love letter at hindi rin ako mahilig sa mga letter. Pero dahil hanggang ngayon 'e mukhang hindi pa rin tayo nagkikita, ito lang ang kaya kong magawa.
Asan ka na kaya? Saan ka kaya nag-aaral? Kamusta naman kaya ang pamilya mo? O, may girlfriend ka ba ngayon? Wag mo muna sana siyang pangakuan ng kung ano ano. Andito pa ako. Magkikita pa tayo. Inaantay kita, siguro, sa kabilang sulok ng mundo o andito lang din ako sa Pilipinas kasama mo.
Ano bang mga hilig mo? Tipikal na lalake ka rin ba na mahilig sa basketball, o baka naman mahiyain ka masyado? Ano nga kaya ang estado mo ngayon? Palagi kong naiisip 'yan kapag naaalala ko na lahat daw tayo may itinakdang makakasama habang buhay. Ano kayang ginagawa mo habang ginagawa ko 'to? Nakakaranas ka kaya ng sakit o paghihirap ngayon? Hindi ko alam.. Pero palagi kitang pinag-darasal sa Kanya. Siya lang kasi ang may alam kung sino ka, at kung nasaan ka. Siya lang ang makakasagot sa tanong ko na KAILAN.
Hindi ako magaling mag-drawing. Mahina ako sa Math. At hindi rin ako sporty. Ang alam ko lang gawin ay magsulat. Mahilig din akong mag-basa. Hindi naman ako maarte. Sakto lang. Ordinaryo lang ako manamit, at hindi ako makulorete sa katawan. Hindi pa rin ako bihasa sa pagluluto. Ang alam ko lang gawin ay omelet at pancake. Nakakalungkot nga 'e, hindi ko rin alam kung paano magsaing. Hindi rin ako marunong maglaba at mamalantsa. Pasensya ka na, ha? Mukhang mangangailangan tayo ng kasambahay.
Pero habang hindi pa tayo nagkikita, gagamitin ko ang oras na 'to para mag-grow. Gusto ko sanang i-improve ang sarili ko para sa ating dalawa kapag dumating na ang tamang panahong makikita na kita. Sa totoo lang, natatakot ako. Natatakot ako na baka hindi ako pumasa sa standards ng mga magulang mo. Lalong lalo na ng nanay mo. =/ Pero unti unti naman akong nag-aaral sa pagluluto. Nagpapaturo ako sa nanay ko. Sa nanay mo, dito.
Nag-aaral din ako para sa hinaharap natin. Ayokong maging housewife lang. Gusto ko mag-tutulungan tayo sa pag-suporta sa magiging pamilya natin. Pero sisiguraduhin ko na kapag pauwi ka na ng trabaho, nasa bahay na ako. Nakahanda na ang kakainin mo at damit mo. Gusto kitang pagsilbihan hanggat may lakas ako. Gusto kong iparamdam sayo ang pagmamahal na inipon ko ng ilang taon nung hindi pa tayo.
Pasensya ka na kung napaka-futuristic ng dating ng pag-iisip ko. Ako kasi yung tipo na gusto ko, ikaw na yun. Ikaw na yung pagbibigayn ko ng lahat ng makakaya at buong pagmamahal na kaya kong maibigay sa isang tao.
Anyway, alam ko naman na lahat ng tao ay may kahinaan. Lahat tayo, may nakaraan. Lahat tayo, may nagawang mali na gusto nating itama. H'wag mo nang problemahin kung ano mang nangyari sa nakaraan mo. Tatanggapin ko yun at magsisimula ka ng bago, magkatulong tayo. Alam ko rin na normal lang na magkaroon tayo ng "rough days", ayoko sanang patagalin natin kung ano man ang problemang kakaharapin natin. Sana, maging mapag-pasensya at mapag-patawad tayo sa isa't isa.
Higit sa lahat, mamahalin kita sa paraang nakikita ko kung paano minamahal ng nanay ko ngayon ang tatay ko. At kung paano ko gustong makitang minamahal ng magiging "daughter-in-law" ko ang magiging anak ko.
So ngayon, ayan. Nasabi ko na yung gusto kong sabihin. Kung saang panig ka man ng mundo naroroon, sana maramdaman mo na hinihintay at pinaghahandaan kita dito. Dito, sa puso ko.
Hindi ako perpektong babae. Napakalayo ko doon. Pero gagawin ko ang lahat para iparamdam sayo na ikaw ang pinaka-importanteng lalake sa mundo.
Mag-iingat at magdarasal ka sana parati.
Aantayin kita.
Iyong Future Girlfriend,
Mariah
Wednesday
To Quit or Not To Quit
Hindi ako talaga dapat online ngayon, e. Wala kasi akong pasok ngayong araw lang na 'to. Pero dahil 2 lang ang subjects ko ngayon, wala pa yung isang prof 'e wala na din kaming klase dun sa huling subject. Pero.. Madami pa rin akong kailangang gawin. Everyday is Quiz Day. At hindi ko na alam kung tama pa bang pinagpapatuloy ko 'tong course na 'to o sadyang napipilitan na lang ako dahil umabot na ko sa level na 'to. Sa ngayon, nag-eenjoy naman ako. Kahit gabi gabing nag-aaral - na hindi ko naman talaga gawain, at kahit na nag-aral ka na at nagpuyat 'e failed pa rin. Kaya lang sa puntong ito, there's no turning back.
Pero naisip ko, kapag bumagsak ako kahit isang sub lang ngayong sem na ito, lilipat na ako ng course. Psych? Mas madami kasing credited kapag galing MT ka tapos Psych ang patutunguhan. Pwede na rin ang Psych. Gusto ko sana ng Masscom. Kaya lang, masyadong petiks 'yon, lalo akong tatamarin. Tsaka wala akong maccredit na sub, sobrang konti lang.
As of now, sabi nila, in demand nga ang Medical Technologists.. Pero wag ibase sa 'in demand' ang tatahakin. Mahirap nang magsayang ng pera, oras, at talento kung kukunin mo lang ang isang course dahil uso at madaming pwedeng pasukang trabaho. Dahil sa huli, ikaw lang din ang mahihirapan. Mare-realize mo na lang na hindi mo pala talaga kaya (mentally, physically, and emotionally) ang challenges na dulot ng MedTech life. O di kaya minsan naman, 'yun talaga ang gustong gusto mong gawin o pre-med mo kung saka-sakali nangarap kang maging doktor, pero hindi mo naman talaga kaya.
Sadyang may mga bagay kasi na hindi nadadaan lang sa pangarap, kakailanganin mo talaga ang apat bagay upang magtagumpay: 1) dedikasyon, 2) disiplina, 3) talino 4) kakayahan. Magkulang ka ng isa dyan, mahihirapan ka na. Mahirap na nga ang course, mas mahihirapan ka pa lalo..
Katulad ko.
Pero naisip ko, kapag bumagsak ako kahit isang sub lang ngayong sem na ito, lilipat na ako ng course. Psych? Mas madami kasing credited kapag galing MT ka tapos Psych ang patutunguhan. Pwede na rin ang Psych. Gusto ko sana ng Masscom. Kaya lang, masyadong petiks 'yon, lalo akong tatamarin. Tsaka wala akong maccredit na sub, sobrang konti lang.
As of now, sabi nila, in demand nga ang Medical Technologists.. Pero wag ibase sa 'in demand' ang tatahakin. Mahirap nang magsayang ng pera, oras, at talento kung kukunin mo lang ang isang course dahil uso at madaming pwedeng pasukang trabaho. Dahil sa huli, ikaw lang din ang mahihirapan. Mare-realize mo na lang na hindi mo pala talaga kaya (mentally, physically, and emotionally) ang challenges na dulot ng MedTech life. O di kaya minsan naman, 'yun talaga ang gustong gusto mong gawin o pre-med mo kung saka-sakali nangarap kang maging doktor, pero hindi mo naman talaga kaya.
Sadyang may mga bagay kasi na hindi nadadaan lang sa pangarap, kakailanganin mo talaga ang apat bagay upang magtagumpay: 1) dedikasyon, 2) disiplina, 3) talino 4) kakayahan. Magkulang ka ng isa dyan, mahihirapan ka na. Mahirap na nga ang course, mas mahihirapan ka pa lalo..
Katulad ko.
Thursday
Bullets
I wasn't able to update my blog these past few days that I missed to share the highlights.. Now, I don't know how to share everything.
So, hello bullets!
So, hello bullets!
- Went to Bulacan to celebrate my cousin's party and was stuck there until Sunday that week because of the supposed to be typhoon, Chedeng.
- Enrolled on the first day of the opening of our enrollment (May 30). Section 3 - 3MT03. Deal with it. Wala nang 7:30, men. Horraaaay!
- Went to SM Masinag for the first time! With friends for Masinag, ya know.
- Bought SPF 100 sunblock. I dunno, I'm crazy. Ayokong mangitim, K?
- Pruchased my first pokpok red nail polish and a skin tone one. I am happy. And complete.
- Will be going to Club Manila East tomorrow for an overnight swimming! Parents' treat. ☺
- Start of classes on June 13. I just hope nothing goes wrong with my uniform.
This is a very unprofessional way to blog. Never do this again, Mariah.
Saturday
Sunday
Power of Books
I am fascinated with books. There is something with having a new book that excites me.
The first book that I've read that really triggered my enthusiasm towards reading is Glass by Ellen Hopkins. Just then I have developed my passion towards reading. I've learned that it's her second book, continuation of Crank. I managed to find the very last copy they have of it in a local bookstore. And now, I'm saving up for the last book, which is Fallout.
I prefer hardbound-covered ones. But the paperback or soft cover ones comes cheaper. That'll do, too.
My father love books, too. We can spend the whole day in a bookstore, scanning and reading some of them.
My aunt likes reading, too. And so as my cousins.
But my mom and brother - not quite.
And I think, reading too much (because sometimes I read on 'against the light' places, as what my mom would say, and inside the jeepney.) contributed to the development of my astigmatism.
I find joy being surrounded by books.
It's like they have powers. They can take you to places, be somebody else, and improve your imagination you thought you've lost growing up.
It's like a necessity. To improve. To relax. To have fun.
Books are really great treasures everybody should have. And love.
The first book that I've read that really triggered my enthusiasm towards reading is Glass by Ellen Hopkins. Just then I have developed my passion towards reading. I've learned that it's her second book, continuation of Crank. I managed to find the very last copy they have of it in a local bookstore. And now, I'm saving up for the last book, which is Fallout.
I prefer hardbound-covered ones. But the paperback or soft cover ones comes cheaper. That'll do, too.
My father love books, too. We can spend the whole day in a bookstore, scanning and reading some of them.
My aunt likes reading, too. And so as my cousins.
But my mom and brother - not quite.
And I think, reading too much (because sometimes I read on 'against the light' places, as what my mom would say, and inside the jeepney.) contributed to the development of my astigmatism.
I find joy being surrounded by books.
It's like they have powers. They can take you to places, be somebody else, and improve your imagination you thought you've lost growing up.
It's like a necessity. To improve. To relax. To have fun.
Books are really great treasures everybody should have. And love.
Glasses
I have been on and off the computer lately. I always check on my Facebook account and updated Tweets every now and then. I surf the net for the news around the world and other interesting stuff. Day after day, this is how I keep myself busy before school days start again.
I used to wear glasses when I was a kid. Reading glasses. Then, not long after I got it I stopped using it. Everything was clear before.
I could read from afar.
Until I felt the pain again this year.
I often suffer headaches after I use the computer for a couple of hours. There was even a time when I suffered dizziness for two consecutive days that I even thought maybe something's wrong with my head.
So last night, I got my eyes checked. Again. After years.
The ophthalmologist told me I am suffering from Astigmatism. I've heard about it before, but I don't know what it means. So this is what I found on the internet:
My mom told me my aunt have it. And so as my brother. He got his eyes checked, too, last night. Though the doctor told us his grade is higher than mine.
The sad part is, I have to wear it all the time. Everyday. Especially when using the computer.
It sucks. I don't want to be wearing glasses when the school starts.
I don't think glasses looks good on me. Siggggggh.
I used to wear glasses when I was a kid. Reading glasses. Then, not long after I got it I stopped using it. Everything was clear before.
I could read from afar.
Until I felt the pain again this year.
I often suffer headaches after I use the computer for a couple of hours. There was even a time when I suffered dizziness for two consecutive days that I even thought maybe something's wrong with my head.
So last night, I got my eyes checked. Again. After years.
The ophthalmologist told me I am suffering from Astigmatism. I've heard about it before, but I don't know what it means. So this is what I found on the internet:
Astigmatism is an eye condition with blurred vision as its main symptom. The front surface of the eye (cornea) of a person with astigmatism is not curved properly - the curve is irregular - usually one half is flatter than the other - sometimes one area is steeper than it should be. (medicalnewstoday.com)
My mom told me my aunt have it. And so as my brother. He got his eyes checked, too, last night. Though the doctor told us his grade is higher than mine.
The sad part is, I have to wear it all the time. Everyday. Especially when using the computer.
It sucks. I don't want to be wearing glasses when the school starts.
I don't think glasses looks good on me. Siggggggh.
Friday
Value of Happiness
It's been a while. A really long time.
But as I was gone, I learned how to be so close to God. I learned how to depend on Him and that He always have a bigger plan for me.
I have realized that I wasted so much time depending my happiness on other people.. I have spent my entire teenage years feeling so empty having no one with me. I felt incomplete before. I was dumb to think that I am not enough for myself, so I kept on depending my happiness on other people. And each and every time I try to give my all to someone, I always end up getting hurt. And so, I am alone again.. I am incomplete.
And the cycle goes on.
This is my last year being a teen. And I have learned the best thing.
I have learned to distant myself from other people and enjoyed being alone for quite a while. I have learned that loving myself would be the first step for total happiness. And that having someone to be with me is just a bonus.
Life is awesome. Whether you are alone or not. Because one should not depend his or her happiness to other people.
True Happiness is learning how to be contented and learning how to love oneself before anyone else.
But as I was gone, I learned how to be so close to God. I learned how to depend on Him and that He always have a bigger plan for me.
I have realized that I wasted so much time depending my happiness on other people.. I have spent my entire teenage years feeling so empty having no one with me. I felt incomplete before. I was dumb to think that I am not enough for myself, so I kept on depending my happiness on other people. And each and every time I try to give my all to someone, I always end up getting hurt. And so, I am alone again.. I am incomplete.
And the cycle goes on.
This is my last year being a teen. And I have learned the best thing.
I have learned to distant myself from other people and enjoyed being alone for quite a while. I have learned that loving myself would be the first step for total happiness. And that having someone to be with me is just a bonus.
Life is awesome. Whether you are alone or not. Because one should not depend his or her happiness to other people.
True Happiness is learning how to be contented and learning how to love oneself before anyone else.
Tuesday
What's on my homepage?
This is one of the events I was tagged on. But What the f*ck, I am trying to get myself off from the pressure of what may happen tomorrow then suddenly I saw this AGAIN. I noticed this last night and said how pathetic is this for my FB friend to even make an event on this. Of course everyone's going to check on their class cards whether they'd like the results or not.
So now I am furious. I need to sleep and pray for 'come what may'.
Letter to God
Dear God,
First of all, I would like to thank You for all the blessings You never fail to shower our family. We may not be a perfect or ideal Catholic family like what You commanded us to be, but still, You never let us suffer and face the hardships alone. Thank You for giving me the family I have now. Thank You for giving me to a very supportive, caring, and loving mother and a very family-oriented and hardworking father. Thank You for giving us the joy of our family, the one who never fails to make each one of us laugh during the down moments of our lives, my younger brother. Thank You for giving us the opportunities. The opportunities we know we do not deserve but we are very very grateful of, Almighty Father. Thank You for providing all of our needs, for the continuous good health to our family especially to our mother and father who works really hard to support our family. Thank You for the good community I am in and all those people around me who continue to serve as my inspiration in everything I do. Thank You for these talents that You have given me as I promise to You that I will use them in Your grace. Thank You for the friends and classmates I've met who shares their ups and downs with me as we learn from each other how to strive harder in everything we do and continue to give our best for a brighter future.
I am not a perfect child, Father. I make mistakes everyday. I hurt people, I ignore people. There are times wherein all I care and think about is myself, that I fail to consider the feelings of others. I take advantage of a lot of things- my studies, my parents, my friends, and sometimes, I even take advantage of myself. I get blinded by the temporary happiness material things bring that I forget to talk to You.
Now Father, I am asking for Your guidance as I continue my journey one step at a time. Tomorrow, our grades will be released and I fear that I'd have failing grade/s this time. If that happens, this would be my first time to have a failing grade and to attend a summer class. I fear, Father, that everything I worked seriously hard for would be disregarded. I really enjoy this course I am taking up now, not just because of the friends I've met, but also because, this has always been my dream. I dream of being a pedia someday and this course serves as my stepping stone towards pursuing my dreams. I would get the chance to work with children as I always wanted and maybe, save lives in the long run. I am asking for Your continuous guidance, wisdom, and grace, Dear God, so I may continue on to the next level of my journey. Help me to find the confidence and learn to trust myself and the gifts you have given me to pursue my dreams. Lead me as to which is the right path for me to take and keep me from influences that might lead to the ending of my journey. Lead me to Your teachings My Lord and I ask You to please, strengthen my faith in You.
I also pray for my brother that he may find in his heart what it is that he really wants to be in life and lead him to the right path. I also pray for my friends that they may find the Light and lead them also to Your plans..
Let Your Will Be Done, My Lord. For all of life's love and happiness starts with You.
This I humbly pray, in Your most precious name, Our Lord Jesus Christ.
Amen.
First of all, I would like to thank You for all the blessings You never fail to shower our family. We may not be a perfect or ideal Catholic family like what You commanded us to be, but still, You never let us suffer and face the hardships alone. Thank You for giving me the family I have now. Thank You for giving me to a very supportive, caring, and loving mother and a very family-oriented and hardworking father. Thank You for giving us the joy of our family, the one who never fails to make each one of us laugh during the down moments of our lives, my younger brother. Thank You for giving us the opportunities. The opportunities we know we do not deserve but we are very very grateful of, Almighty Father. Thank You for providing all of our needs, for the continuous good health to our family especially to our mother and father who works really hard to support our family. Thank You for the good community I am in and all those people around me who continue to serve as my inspiration in everything I do. Thank You for these talents that You have given me as I promise to You that I will use them in Your grace. Thank You for the friends and classmates I've met who shares their ups and downs with me as we learn from each other how to strive harder in everything we do and continue to give our best for a brighter future.
I am not a perfect child, Father. I make mistakes everyday. I hurt people, I ignore people. There are times wherein all I care and think about is myself, that I fail to consider the feelings of others. I take advantage of a lot of things- my studies, my parents, my friends, and sometimes, I even take advantage of myself. I get blinded by the temporary happiness material things bring that I forget to talk to You.
Now Father, I am asking for Your guidance as I continue my journey one step at a time. Tomorrow, our grades will be released and I fear that I'd have failing grade/s this time. If that happens, this would be my first time to have a failing grade and to attend a summer class. I fear, Father, that everything I worked seriously hard for would be disregarded. I really enjoy this course I am taking up now, not just because of the friends I've met, but also because, this has always been my dream. I dream of being a pedia someday and this course serves as my stepping stone towards pursuing my dreams. I would get the chance to work with children as I always wanted and maybe, save lives in the long run. I am asking for Your continuous guidance, wisdom, and grace, Dear God, so I may continue on to the next level of my journey. Help me to find the confidence and learn to trust myself and the gifts you have given me to pursue my dreams. Lead me as to which is the right path for me to take and keep me from influences that might lead to the ending of my journey. Lead me to Your teachings My Lord and I ask You to please, strengthen my faith in You.
I also pray for my brother that he may find in his heart what it is that he really wants to be in life and lead him to the right path. I also pray for my friends that they may find the Light and lead them also to Your plans..
Let Your Will Be Done, My Lord. For all of life's love and happiness starts with You.
This I humbly pray, in Your most precious name, Our Lord Jesus Christ.
Amen.
Your Daughter,
Mariah
That Awkward Moment
"That Awkward Moment When you Suddenly Forget the Spelling Of An Easy Word."
I always have this 'awkward moment'! Like awhile ago, I was typing a comment on a post on our group then I suddenly forgot how to spell 'Christmas'. I have to ask my brother, "En, tama ba spelling ko ng Christmas?", "Oo, ate. Ano ba yan.", he said. I laughed at myself. THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME. And to think that I enjoy reading and writting. Damn neurons not functioning properly at times.
I always have this 'awkward moment'! Like awhile ago, I was typing a comment on a post on our group then I suddenly forgot how to spell 'Christmas'. I have to ask my brother, "En, tama ba spelling ko ng Christmas?", "Oo, ate. Ano ba yan.", he said. I laughed at myself. THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME. And to think that I enjoy reading and writting. Damn neurons not functioning properly at times.
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